Our journey began over ten years ago! When Steven and I first met, we had many typical dreams in mind. We wanted to get married, laugh together, cry together, embrace one another, work, and buy a house and make it our home. Most importantly, we wanted to create and love a family together. They are all dreams that seem reachable (RIGHT)? After a year, we had achieved a few of these things. Looking into the future, as a 29 year old woman, I decided we had better look into creating the family that would spend forever with us. We began trying to become pregnant. Month after month, of having negative marks on pregnancy tests thrown in our faces, we decided to seek help. In December of 2004, I underwent a surgery to find out that I had a severe case of endometriosis, a possible septum in my uterus, and the list went on to reveal a few other problems as well. This didn’t seem too daunting, so we began to try again. We also began looking into other avenues to bring our family together.
This led us to the amazing world of adoption. Through adoption, we received our oldest daughter. She has been an example to us from the beginning. She has offered love and compassion beyond our knowledge. We have learned what it’s like to have a child that blesses our life every day.
Six months after becoming parents for the first time we started having different testing done to find solutions to our infertility. I underwent another surgery where they found a dermoide cyst in my pelvic area. After many years of unexplainable pain and discomfort it was finally removed. It was a relief to solve that problem, but once again, I felt like I needed closure to my fertility issues. We went through different blood work, surgery, and test after test to bring peace to my mind. We didn't find answers to our questions, but we moved on to bring another life into our home.
We signed up through the same agency we did with my older daughter but discovered we needed to search in different places for our second little miracle. She too has been a wonderful blessing in our lives. She is now 4 and loves preschool, dancing, singing and her older sister. We have been incredibly blessed, as you may see.
When she was 2, I was dealing with so much pain in my abdomen that we decided to seek the help of a professional. It was obvious that in order to relieve me of the pain, I needed to have a hysterectomy. After many years of trying to conceive a biological child, I had to find closure with the fact that I was supposed to move past it. I was forced to surrender the ties I had with becoming a biological parent to a child. I decided I would be incredibly grateful for the fulfillment of my 2 beautiful girls, no matter how they came into our family. We have embraced the love and feelings we have had as parents of these two. We are blessed in every way possible with them. We have been fulfilled by the grace of God as well.
This year, while attending a wedding of a friend, we were educated by a highly respected professional about gestational carriers and IVF. Many feelings resurfaced in my heart, and I watched my husband's eyes light up in disbelief at the possiblities of something we thought was closed off to us. As the discussion ended, we decided that we would look further into the possibility of making this happen for us. Our doctor called in the tests we would need to undergo to reach our goals. All of which have come back with high standards. We found a possible gestational carrier. We have spoken to the needed lawyers, counselors, officers, and doctors to proceed. We have also explored the many ways we could fund something like this. We are dedicating what we have saved into this, but we still fall short. We would be so grateful to receive the added help we need at this time in our life and journey. We need small miracles to take place so we will feel fulfilled has a family!
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